I have received numerous request asking for me what I said in the "MY HELL" show in Seattle. Since the audience was loud, there was distortion on my mic., and I've been asked numerous times I've decided to post what was written prior to the show and what I used as my lines.
I've also had a few people try to comfort me around what was spoken that evening. I just want to put it out there..... that even though I appreciate the support..... I was playing a character that evening. The story does not exactly explain my life. My life was much easier than my characters.

My friend Marc17 took these pictures... <a href="www.voltagemagazine.com/galler...<br>
We also have picts. coming from Circle 23 but we have not received them as of yet. I'll post more asap.
Thank you all for supporting CoRE and we hope to see you in the near future.
-Steve Joyner


"MY HELL"

~Cenobites are performing center of audience and musicians are playing~
**black out center audience** ** Cenobites move through audience and approach
main stage** ** Myself and main Cenobite enter main stage**

This is the last thing I saw before THEY came....(looks at throne) .... This throne was built for my Ego....(shed clothing, sit on throne)...

BUT, it wasn..t always this way.

It all started with my lack of family. Yes, I had a father, a mother, brothers, and sisters....but....there wasn..t Love.
**attach hook to heart area**

My family was like cellmates existing under the same roof until age allowed us to escape, social retards being released into the horrid world with no empathy for mankind.

From a young age my father taught me what a great escape alcohol is, no matter how bad your job sucks, no matter how far you are in debt, no matter how fucked up your spouse is.. the bottle is always there to comfort you.
** attach hook to liver area**

and comfort me it did.
**motion taking a drink of alcohol**

It gave me what I mistook to be courage..enabling me to fight all that was negative and evil in my life.
But more times than not the liquid courage caused more harm than good. It allowed me to stand up and fight anyone...my father, the asshole at the bar, or even those who considered themselves friends.
**attach hooks to arm(R) and leg(L)**

With confidence comes power... And I learned you do not have to beat people into submission to get your way.

I perfected the art of the ..mind fuck.. and became a master at changing my friends into my minions.
The skill of manipulation became such second nature that I lost everyone around me.. even those that called themselves friends. With no challenge remaining I was forced to seek satisfaction elsewhere.
**attach hook to neck(R)**

Venturing into the world once more I stalked the bars, the clubs, and the internet looking for the next potential puppet to control.
Just mentally controlling wasn..t enough.. I added pure physical domination.
The raw urge for sexual control became an invigorating release. Sleeping with women..men..children..and even the occasional animal seemingly satisfied my craving for sex.
**attach hook to testicles(L)**

But like the act itself, this was short-lived.. leaving me struggling to find something to indulge the emptiness.
And thus I found the needle, for as much comfort as the bottle had been..
Heroin was a true escape...
**motion injecting heroin(L)**

.. to feel the power of control over existence, was exhilarating! Not just my own mere life but that of every man, women, child, and creature in my presents.
**attach hook to arm(L)**

My EGO.. this monster I created now controlled everything I am.
**attach hooks in back(4)**

I felt like a God..

the ultimate power..

the master of my own destiny.....

.... and then THEY came to show me just how right I was.....

** Black out**
**suspend**
**pull throne**
**tighten 550 cords**
**strobes** cenobites dancing on sides of box
** black out ** 3 sec.
**fade in red godlight** 3 to 5 sec. pause
...THIS IS ..MY HELL.. 3 to 5 sec. pause
**black out-end of show**

Hook layout:
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Family - Heart

Alcoholism .. Liver

Violence .. Leg (L), Arm (R)

Manipulation - Neck (R)

Sex .. Testicles (L)

Heroin .. Arm (L)

Ego .. Vertical Back (4)